RESOLUTIONS

This post might be a tad late but it is because I have pondered, meditated and ruminated enough on the things that need serious editing about myself. See, I am turning twenty this year. I am about to leave the glorious kingdom of teenage-hood. But truth is, I feel like I am just somewhere sixteen and seventeen and that exact kind of mental state needs to change. 

Honestly, I am starting the year both being overwhelmed and feeling a bit strange. Overwhelmed because I seem to get anything I have wished for. Not exactly all but some and it's terrifying in some ways. Strange on the other hand because I feel I am not able to fully grasp my balance. Life and people seems getting weirder and weirder and I am "weirded" out myself. Recently, I find myself ricocheting between happiness and loneliness. 2012 was actually an awakening year. I learned a lot of things and whatever those lessons are, it birthed into these resolutions...

This 2013 I'll try to...

-Jog on mornings.

-Wake up earlier and witness the sunrise and not wake up when it’s high noon.

-Listen not to reply but to understand.

-Never judge anyone or else I’ll just end up being surprised.

-Stop flirting thyself into an awkward situation.

-Stop being the awkward situation.

-Shut up.

-Focus on one goal and work my out to reach it.

-Control emotions, especially when over enthused over something or someone.

-Delete “assume” and “expect” in my vocabulary.

-Not compromise myself too much to others.

-Stop being too polite. Be real.

-Stop being too available.

-Guard my heart.

-Play smart.

-Accept that the world is harsh.

-Walk my talk.

-Be a better conversationalist.

-Guard my health. Eat healthy.

-Meet more people. Widen horizons.

-Go somewhere.

-Increase alcohol tolerance.

-Be more creative.

-Stop being too attached.

-Stop feigning affection. It’s OKAY NOT TO CARE.

-Screen my stories. Not everyone’s interested.

-Say no to overthinking.

-Stop always feeling responsible.

-TAKE RISKS EVEN IF IT’S SCARY.

-Think before talking.

-Say NO when I mean NO and say YES when I mean YES.

-Stop being nice to people who don’t deserve it.

-Grow up. Like seriously.

They don't exactly sound like my usual bubbly self, but I think that is what 2013 is all about for me. 

Time to toughen up.

xx